500 Followers.......

 

 



Maybe its an age thing, possibly its seasonal and it will pass......but the thought has occurred to me recently that I might be lonely !

 

I know quite a few people and each has something to offer to my life, I enjoy their company....we even have fun when we meet, but something is still missing.

 



 



A study recently released suggested that taking more "selfies" will make us happy...at which point I was tempted to throw something at the television and walk out of the room.
We spend our lives in this self-obsessed dream state as it is and really don't need some supposedly educated person to conduct a study on how to immerse ourselves in a vanity project that will improve our lot in life !

The Friends I have know me on a different level, they have a deeper understanding of my past...the type of people that are quite happy to sit and stare out of a window...saying nothing, just being in each others company.
Admittedly it is I that chose to go off galloping around the world, leaving them behind...and still they give me time of day, for that I am grateful, for that is a sign of true Friendship......but now I find I am fearful of my future.

I have a love that few ever have, and He walks with me always......he too has become isolated from this world.....it is enough to have eachother, but as human beings we crave the pack.....the heard...we are not a solitary species...we seem to have learned this behavior over time, society has courted this relationship....so now we find ourselves with five hundred followers and not a Friend in the world !

By openly discussing this situation, we can explore the possibility of change......I for one do not wish to be a burden on another....nor do I wish to create a sense of responsibility among our Friends, but I do yearn for more company, that closeness that seems to have been lost over time.

Maybe it is an age thing......maybe I think too much...or maybe I care too much for those closest to me.....the answers evades me at this stage, no doubt they will present themselves when the time is right ?