Is it a Winter thing ?...or is it something more; I glance in the mirror and can't see what I need to see.I am not this person, the one that picks at a thread until it unravels...I do not want to be this person, somehow I need to retrace my steps to find that point of joy that now eludes me.
I am at a loss as to see what others see, to feel what others feel when they are near me; is this depression ?
Is the black dog real ?
If it is I don't want him near me, or anyone for that matter !
Did I let myself slip into this mindset ?...if the answer is yes then its time to shake it off, kick the dog if need be, figuratively not literally.
Put on some music, get some friends round and stir up this house, stir up your house...this is not who I am or want to be so be gone you feral animal and don't come near me again.
I glance over at Isla; my beautiful fur baby asleep on the sofa, okay so I broke a rule this morning...let her sleep, she looks so peaceful. I thank the universe for her, for my man in the other room and Maggie our other bundle of trouble that makes me laugh.
So I say again, get out of my head and shake it off like raindrops on my coat...come back to who you are, to who others see and face the day, only by walking with your head up will you see where you are heading.
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